I'm a loser.....

.....70....80....90....100...My speedometer was gaining momentum. Fuel gauge dropped down its level, asking me to slow down. Screeching and drifting, my car headed through the industrial road. I still don't remember seeing any faces during that journey. It was not a deserted road, may be, i was driving fast. I could hear my conscience calling me "LOSER" and a bitter taste of deception persisted in my mind....I was like the heroes(military commandos) of the movie "THE LOSERS"...These guys were unfortunate enough to witness the destruction of a helicopter in mid air. There was something special about the helicopter. It carried the hostages after a rescue operation. The order to abandon the chopper came from the same person who ordered for the rescue mission...While they pause, we really think that they are definitely losers.The story begins here, with their retreat, to have their vengeance to the villain......But mine is a different story. its a story about all those who think with heart, and not with brain....

I was always told not to imitate elders until i was of their age. I didn't hear..My sister was doing graduation while i was a 10th std stud. I had a clear picture about college. Freedom, love and life always cherished in the campus. There were many pranks that turned out to be their favorite time pass. One among them was Christmas greetings. Each of them selected a friend on first working day of December, and kept those names in secret. In the following days, each of them begins to receive anonymous letters, filled with proposals, romantic poems, and so on...Finally they will reveal themselves during Christmas celeb, with a sweet smile on their face. I thought to adapt the same to my school...
I just wanted to try this with my friend. He was my bench-mate and of course, a good buddy of mine.
I asked a girl to write a similar letter it to have a realistic approach. i didn't want to deceive him much, so i left a clue towards the end, so that he can find it out as soon as he finish reading. Beyond my expectation, he took the letter to another friend and He spotted me out as per the clue. But i felt offended as my plans didn't work, and refused to take its responsibility. I was thinking with heart, not with brain....Finally, he broke up the friendship with me....I could hear someone calling me from within- "Loser"....

I enjoyed college more than my sister did. With Night calls, gossip couples, fake love stories, counterfeit romance, and so many pranks, life was on full swing. Favorite one was gossip couples. We paired and parted in no time. Sometimes the stories spread by itself. Sometimes we had the tedious job of spreading them by our own. We didnt keep the pairs' name in secret. After all, they were meant to be public secrets...We all enjoyed it...

Few days before, i got a call from my friend. She conveyed an urgent message, reminding me of about few couples formed during our annual tour. The lady on other end was my gossip pair (Ms. Y). I had the duty of convincing her hostel mate( Ms. X) for the existence of a serious affair between us, incase she calls me. I was the center of attraction. She told me that Ms. X was so excited about hearing it, that she couldn't believe it...She called me. I did as she said. Even though i didn't explicitly say that we had serious affairs, i pretended that what she heard from her friends was right....I asked Ms Y to reveal the truth at the earliest, as i didn't want her to feel offended. She gave me a promise...Since then Ms. X began calling me, asking to narrate our love story. She was busy annoying my pair at her hostel, for the same.They all had a nice time deceiving her..

I was watching a movie when i attended Ms. X's phone call. She was in a hurry, as if she had discovered something. I expected her call,and thought that it may be after knowing the truth and to rebuke me, and anyone would do the same. She hung up the phone very politely when she realized that i was busy watching movie. I called Ms. Y and inquired whether Ms. X came to know about the truth. She said no. I again asked her to clear the situation at the earliest, and let me know. She said yes. Following few days, me and Ms.Y had many chats over sms, and we came across the word trust.We had few talks on trust.And trust, at this point sounds like an irony...

One of our classmate was getting married today. Most of us were present for the function. As soon as i spotted Ms. X  she hurried towards me and asked for the same - our love story. I tried to escape, but couldn't....I said all these were fake, but she refused to believe. Now i made certain gestures to Ms. Y and gave her a prelude that i was about to make one nice story... She gestured back a "no"... I conveyed - "i have to. I'm trapped."
Finally, Ms. Y whispered in my ears-

"She knows that there is nothing between us. We have already told her. She is pretending as if she doesn't know that".....





The page went blank...I was shocked...Then why the hell didn't Ms.Y told me before?....On further interrogation, i found that her friends asked her to b silent about telling Ms. X the truth. And i have to congratulate Ms. X for her wonderful acting. Ms. Y could have given me a clue about it...we had talks about things of utmost secrecy than this matter, which took us across the "talk about trust" mentioned before. I could really get what went through their minds when the missile hit the chopper as in the movie....Bloody loser....It was me who got deceived, offended, and became their puppet....The problem was, i didn't think with brain. I thought with heart....Ultimately the prank shattered me like the "sword of Damocles" (i think i spelled it wrong)...

Dedicated to all losers....






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