I miss u all....

Today was the worst morning of my life. I woke up early in the morning. I couldn't sleep peacefully. I had nothing to do for the day, for my college days were over. I couldn't bear the pain. My last days were worthy enough to be remembered. I had a clash with my dear friend, and all the compromise talks we had was really unforgettable....Even though during my WAR with my dear friend, there was a chance that i could see her from a distance. But now when i love them with my whole heart, they are far enough and not to be seen anywhere.....I really miss them...

What exactly is MISSING?.....Well..Every day, right from the moment i wake up, i have plans to get done. There was a motive behind my all deeds.That was to create an impression; preferably, on girls...Right from the first day to the last day of my college. May be most of them will b aware about it by this time. So when i got up today, what was i supposed to do?....i needn't dress properly, i needn't dress up quickly, and i had nowhere to go.....I had no one to wish a good morning with a sweet smile on my face. I was feeling lonely. I was someone inside that college...Today, i felt like a dead man, with no lives around me.....

I got a relief when my mom asked me to take her to the treasury. Even though i drove very carefully, my mind was wandering in the campus..I don't remember seeing any vehicles on my way. The only thing i remember was my friends' faces. I was silent throughout my journey,. My mom felt the indifference... She know how much the college meant to me...

I am the youngest among my classmates. I got promoted from LKG to first standard. A double promotion. I had asked my mom many a while about this. She had a casual reply " You were taller than rest of your friends. So i got u promoted"....It didn't take a long time to realize that i was not as tall as told by my mom. During my graduation i raised the same question to her, once again. She gave me a different answer. She wanted me to be a graduate by the time she gets retired from her job. And that proved to be a reality. By the time i completed my grad, her career has come to an end. Her motive was to make me financially self dependent by the time her income stops. But there was a coincidence... Both of us shared the same experience.. Loneliness...She had nowhere to go...No more students...No more colleges...So was me....So it was god who planned to put me and my mom together in the same situation. I am there for mom, or she is there with me to share the feeling of loneliness.....i ve to get busy... I ve to get occupied... I need a job now....Blogging and reading alone can't rescue me from this situation...So, i am moving out.....in search of a job...In search of a new way to forget my loneliness.....Really miss u dear friends......I really miss u...... Its now, i realize how much did i love you.......