Right before he says "I LOVE YOU".....

Disclaimer:

This is an abstract from my friend's life.  Isn't it amazing?.. If you think that i am lying (as the girl in white frock was controversial), it is because i wrote this for him in my own style, my own ways, with a tint of exaggeration. He told this to me when someone send an "I LOVE YOU" to his mobile. He was not sure, whether she was kidding or not. So he ringed me, narrating the entire story,  and meanwhile, he confessed about his school days. Apparently, this post is like Sidin Vadukut's "DORK ;The incredible adventures of Robin Einstein Varghese" ( Ever heard of that book?. Well there is one such book), as i don't have any topic, sitting idle at home, i thought to publish this without his consent. Thanks dear friend, and pardon me...  





"I love you"...

The moment this messaged beeped into my mobile, i was shocked. I could hear my heart beat, much faster, and harder. I was about to pick up some curry from dining table. My hand was shivering and i was  breathing fast; panting to be exact.
There is a story behind it. I will tell you that towards the end. So now about my love stories.

I had my primary education from  a village  school, English medium, of course. For my further education, i moved to a hi fi school in town.
For the first time in my life, i had to mingle with students from city. It was a new experience. I was able to showcase my talents much early.
It may be childish egos, i was alone. Most of them exempted me from their companies. I was confused, i couldn't help myself. There was a very good gang of friends in my class. I wanted to be in that group, but they always avoided me. 
They used to tell some codes, like SLN, SLS, etc. At first they didn't tell me what it was, later, they said that it was a short form for their crushes, like Sreekanth Loves Sneha (names  changed). 
They offered a membership in their club if i had such a crush. This was my golden chance to get into. So i lied to them, and came up with a girl's name. So my first love (fake) happened in 5 th standard.

In 6 th standard, i became more self sufficient. I made friendship with more and more students. But was a little introvert towards girls, a bit shy, u may say. If i can speak well to girls now, it is because of my seventh standard friend, X. 
She belongs to Kannur. Her father got transferred to Ernakulam; obviously she was in this school. She was fat, chubby, bulky, and taller than me. But had a sweet smile. 
She was very forward, very good in mingling with girls and boys, and had a good handwriting. I felt a new charm in talking with girls after talking with her. But i was so immature that i had my crush on her from the very next moment. 
We used to do arm wrestling, and had fun. I tried to impress her in every possible way. I told this to my friend. He told that to her, helping to make it a two way line. 
At that time, i came to now that she had crush on another boy in our class.  So she came to me and told that if i am ready to be sincere, then she is ready to make it a 2way line. 
i was happy. We made the deal. But we didn't talk much, our friend ship didn't grow even one step forward. For the coming X'mas, i gave her a Christmas card. She gave one in return to me; it had lovely words, even though i don't remember them.
I kept it in my Biology book, and didn't open it in house, as i was afraid that my dad and mom would find it. When i scored 15/50 for the next exam, my mom  made me open the text and she found it, but didn't say anything. 
I tore it off, so that i can go on with my studies. On the up coming Valentine's day, she gave me a v'card. I was astonished. It was meant for college chaps who are in very serious loves, thought i. So i told her that i wont accept it.
She questioned our deal and reminded me that i was not supposed to cheat. Whatever, that relationship didn't last any more because of this. Next year, she moved to another school, because of her father's transfer. Till now i don't have a contact with her. 
I tried to find her, but in vain.

In nine th and tenth, i had real crush on a girl. I liked her beauty , beauty alone. But was not bold enough to tell her. She was in a two way line with another boy. Even if i was not late to tell her, she wont agree to that. Even though i was smart, i was more or less a kid...mere kid. On the day of our X'mas celebration, i gave a gift to her, through my friend. I thought of giving it directly to her, but my knees trembled  when i went near her.
I didn't have guts. She accepted the gift, and gave it back to me through the same friend. Her boyfriend also came to know about it, and he mentioned that on a chat between us. So i gave that up.

In +1 and +2, i was fed up and didn't try for one. But i love that school very much. That taught me some real friendship.  That school made me a man, more over a human being. In college, same story.

Now about the story i mentioned in the beginning. 

I was very mischievous. Remember the love letters we used to write for Christmas friends?. My brother used to read them to me. So i thought to try it in my class. I asked a few girls to write a love letter to my friend asking him to wait at a particular spot. He did, along with his friends. Me and all those girls noticed that and let our alphas out. I had left out a clue to find me so that soon after reading the letter,  he will find me and everything will end in a laughter. But a fucking friend sitting next to me yelled out that as per the clue, i was the man. The surprise was lost. I swore to him that it was not me. Next day, he some how found me, and i was pulled to the boy's toilet.
Remember the friends' gang in 5th std?. They all were present there. I got a slap on my face from the victim. It still hurts my heart every time i think about that school. I had many good experiences there, but this is so bitter that it could shield off all the happiness.
Those friends are there in my FB friends list, but i rarely speak to them. This friend even threatened about complaining to the principal. I didn't even want to think about a conversation which makes my parents feel humiliated.
I even remember falling to his feet for not complaining. It hurts...

I didn't learn a lesson. I tried it to another friend. He was very upset with me for a few days, but while he gave me his autograph book, i wrote my apologies to him. The words were so sincere that he felt what i meant. He wised up. We became friends again, as before.
But he gave me a piece of advice. Never make fun of friends by selecting a sensible topic like LOVE. People blindly believes for the matter of love. Thats why love is unique. He also said that i wont be able to feel how he felt, unless i came across such a situation. So i was vigilant, still i am. 
So whenever and where ever i hear the words, "I love you", i ask my mind am i being trapped, like i did to my friends?. Does some one wants to see me as a joker in the ring of love?... If so it hurts..

I don't know what was in your mind when you said those three words to me. I don't believe that u said it for a time pass, did u?... Just as you said i would love to hear that from you, because i love you a lot. And all people in this world love to hear that they are being loved by someone.
At the same time, i don't like to hear that from you, because, i would like to love only one girl, and will certainly marry her. But that girl has to be chosen by my parents. I had demanded permission from them only for one thing - to join an IT company even though i am a mechanical engineer. I won't disappoint them, i won't let them down.
May be i mistook you very badly, but believe me, your breath and your talks were not the same; in case u didn't notice. But i am very grateful to you, as you gave me a chance to know how sweet is that feeling when some one say to you "I LOVE YOU"...
Sorry if u felt bad reading the last paragraph. In these matters, i am like that sensitive, immature school kid, ain't i?.