Tough day-1

There are times at which you have a diamond in your hand,and you would like to throw it away,just because you like the peace of mind that you can get by tossing the only silver coin left with you.. As usual you might be clueless to what I am talking,but believe me,this was the reason behind my decision to leave my job from navy.. Want to hear more? Stay tuned.
The thought struck me all of a sudden. I was too much attached to my family when I left them to join back for the job. Being a man on 60, my dad showed what was real courage and how competent is he when compared to a young man like me, during my swimming classes. Actually I became a big fan of him. When I left my dad, I gave him a tight kiss and the warmth still stays on my lips. Mom- I need not tell how much we will miss our mom once we are going to stay away. Kids- oh god, I missed them too badly that every time I closed my eyes, I was hallucinating their laughters,their mischievous acts; and what is my life over here? I will be sailing around the globe round and round. I will miss them all. Will I be able to take care of my parents just like the way my dad took care me while teaching swimming? To be with them,at every point of time, to be a true son. Is it the pride or the satisfaction I get as a true son that has to be given priority?. After screwing up two night's sleep,i took the decision. I am going to leave navy. Thoughts are followed by actions. I put it up to my friends,my officials and to the officers. All of them were shocked. Dad was dead silent when I discussed the matter over phone. Sister was panic struck, mom said ok, but not wholeheartedly. And there was confusion all around my family. They might have wondered what went wrong with me. Like the fleet rolling and pitching in a sea state of 6, all the souls went for six. Someone made an sos call to god..

"cadet deepak joseph requested gangway. Cadet deepak joseph" I was not surprised to hear the quarter master's call. May be the exo wants to make it official. It was my uncle. I cried like a child when i heard his voice over phone. He consoled me,adviced and finally convinced me how childish and foolish was my decision. By the time call ended, i Decided to stay. The advices he gave me need not me mentioned here, for that wont make any difference to you. When I called up my dad, he was overwhelmed with joy and he bursted into tears. For my concerns about my mom, she said that she is no more my mom for my country is my mom, and she added that she felt herself like the rani of jhansi when she said those words.
I was recollecting the entire episode when I went home today on liberty for 3hours. Our life is challenging,not just mine,all ours. We will be distracted. If you are unfortunate to have a shoulder to cry upon, remember this stupid moment of your friend. I am sure that you will wear your armour again,.