Miss u tiny tots.....

What is pain?....
Is it a physical distress caused when you are on your bed, and your niece pull out chest hairs one by one?...Or,
Is it the bodily sensation when she scratch your face with the "cutting edge" of her nails....Or
Is it the outcome of emotional turmoil when you plant a kiss on fore head of your godson and your niece, as a paring gift at the airport?......
I don't know.... 

For the first time in my life, i left airport, with wet eyes. Airports have always added colour to my dreams, and filled my mind with utmost happiness. But today, it added a hue of sadness to my life.
For few months, my house was filled with giggling and cries of two tiny tots. MY niece and my nephew. My mom had a busy time, running behind my niece, and nephew's wet diapers often gave her a name "washer woman". Dad was the key entertainer, and i was her computer operator, for she liked nursery rhymes very much. She learned almost every songs in her collection within this time. Every day begins and end with my niece. She sleeps with my dad and mom, as my sister's bed will be occupied by my nephew. I being late to get up, and mom getting up very early, mom leaves her with me and get started with the "kitchen dance". As i open my eyes, she will be looking at me, and gives me a sweet smile. When i am about to kiss her, she would start murmuring for milk. The first thing i have to get done, is take her to the toilet, and make her piss, or else she would soak my bed. It was always a little difficult task, as i have to make a hissing sound. Mom will give her milk, fresh and healthy. Now i have to play with her, until she is hungry or sleepy. When she rests on my shoulder, i feel like i am in heaven. She kiss my cheeks many a times before falling asleep. Screams, indistinct dialogues and her cries could still be felt echoing everywhere around. BY night, its my mom's and dad's duty to take her to bed, and while climbing the stairs up she counts each step, like ONE, CHOOO, THDEEE, CHICH, and so on...

As one kept me busy throughout, i couldn't have a strong emotional relationship  with my nephew until today. Today was his baptism, with me as his godfather, and my mom as her god mother. When i kissed his forehead at the airport, my eyes were filled, and i hugged him and my sister and sobbed like a child.....All the pranks rushed into my mind when i kissed my niece. I was there walking and playing with her. Now i will loose my friend, my playmate, my dear cuppycake. I pressed my lips tight to her cheeks. For god's sake, she was sleeping and there was no way she could cry, in the pain of leaving us all. And we were also relieved off the pain her cry would impart on us...when i reached home, her dress and mitten were lying here and there. It made me miss her so much, and i cried again, in silence.....

I miss u, my tiny tots.......

Nb: my head sways while writing this post, and i am badly in need for a deep sleep, as i was deprived of it for two days on account of this baptism..Hope u will tolerate me; as always.....